Three years on....

I woke up in a foul mood. I have been so focused on planning out the day and I just wanted sleep. Yasemin felt it necessary to wake up 2 times before 5 and then after 5 to stay awake and make silly faces at me for 2 hours. I finally went back to sleep around 7 only to be woken up half an hour later by the harsh bedroom light as my husband shuffled around looking for socks and getting dressed. Bless his heart. He didn't deserve the sigh and grumbles I gave him as I pulled the comforter over my head. Then he leaned over and quietly asked me where the ATM card was. On the table, I snapped. He got his things together and went out to get me cash for the taxi. When he got back, I met him at the front window. He handed me the money and then said "Happy Anniversary, baby".

Dear God, I felt like an ass for the attitude I had shown him. I am always the one to remember as soon as I wake up what special day it is. How had I forgotten? Then he says to dress nice and we can go out to eat after he leaves work.

After he left, I thought back on our other 2 anniversaries. The first year I was in America and last year on this day, we were in the hospital. I was having a surgery to sew my cervix closed. It had been cut too short due to a surgery I had done back in 2003. The doctor was afraid I would lose the baby and I was already having bleeding and had been on bed rest earlier in the pregnancy. It was a scary time.

This year I had been hoping to find someone to take care of Yasemin for a few hours while we had a nice romantic dinner. You know the kind, where you get to eat together instead of one of us jumping up to walk her around. The trouble is that I don't have any family here and his family lives about an hour away. Our best friends moved to Switzerland a couple months back and there is no one else. Since she was born 6 months ago I have been without her once. Our friends got married in December when she was 5 weeks old and my husband's mom came and spent the night to look after her. We wanted to go out after the wedding but we were all too exhausted. Other than that she has been at my side.

Well, there is always next year. Happy Anniversary, my love.